~Smile and Laughter Brings Joyful~

Feeling

2012-01-10T02:06:00.002+08:00

wanna to express my feeling but I can’t or don’t know how to.
wanna tell you but don’t know is it correct or not.
wanna tell you but scare you will judge me differently.
what worse is that if I tell you, I scare I will lose you.

we use to be together,
we use to having fun together,
we use to talking to each other,
but now not anymore, I noticed and I think I should back off.

seeing you being happy, I also happy for you.
but in the same time, heartache feelings pop inside of me.
still wondering why I'm having this kind of feelings.

I can see life is changing now.
before getting worse, is better either one of us have step out.
I have chosen mine to do it first.
thank you for everthing.

Its Okay Even If It Hurts

2012-01-08T10:08:00.006+08:00

It’s okay even if I can’t see
It’s okay even if I can’t breath
If I could meet you only once
If I could give you all my heart

How much more do I have to miss you
So that maybe you could know my heart?
How much more do I to cry and cry
So that tears could be dry?

Does it hurt because of loving you?
Is it the punishment for loving you so much?
Even though you say that I can lose everything
It’s okay if I just have you to be with me

Even if my heart is broken when loving you
Even if my heart is separated when waiting for you
It’s okay because I love you
It’s okay even if I get hurt

The farther I turn away so as to forget you
The more I miss you, What can I do
Even when you keep telling me it’s not right

just to keep me away from you
You are the only one to me, What can I do

Does it hurt because of loving you?
Is it the punishment for loving you so much?
Even though you say that I can lose everything
It’s okay if I just have you to be with me

Even if my heart is broken when loving you
Even if my heart is separated when waiting for you
It’s okay because I love you
It’s okay even if I get hurt

Even if I get poisoned and pricked
My love for you can’t stop
I will wait for you until forever
I will endure even if it hurts and hurts

Because of loving you more
It’s okay even if tears fall down
It’s okay even if it hurts...

2011-12-29T10:27:00.004+08:00

not feeling well recently,

works and personal things.

cant focus well on working,
cant rest well when i needed.

emotional cannot be control,
few minutes ago = happy & crazy X)
few minutes later = being silent & emo at the corner =.=

lol~

felt a bit heartache which never had that before~
i wonder why, too tired?
i need water, to calm myself down.
swimming pool?? hmm...

'Best in Me - Blue' (love this song once i heard it)
and never stop listening to it... till almost tears... :')

Clarks Warehouse Sales

2011-11-22T09:06:00.009+08:00

17 Nov 2011

is my first time going to Petaling Jaya without someone bringing me go there

coz there is not public transport going to there.
solution is go by train then take local bus at there.
the place are stranger to me.
i though go to Cold Storage by walking there after dropped off from the train.
then i saw a local bus that makes me lazy to walk to there.

while sitting in the bus, i look around the place where the driver took me to,
the place are houses area!!
i went to Jaya One once before so, i still remember how is the place are looks like~
but i don't know where the place i was when that time...

decide to ask the bus driver whether he got go to the place,
and you know what? 'we have passed the place~'

NOOO!!! made me walk all the way from the highway to the event place...
if i didnt take the bus and follow my original plan, i sure won't be that bad... :'(

took me 1 hour walk all the way back to Cold Storage~
tired and frustrated...

the event hall is different from the previous event hall that held at other place
which more classy and colder~
but surprising is that, i yawned for the first day coz it is the easiest setup day(1st day)
ever compare to the previous warehouse sales!
the stocks are sent till in front of the entrance where previously we have to go
all the way to the loading bay and take stocks back to the hall~

so, didn't spend a lot time to complete the task and time passed fast~ :)

when time to go back, i walk back to the train station at LRT Asia Jaya...
under dark sky and scary alley that i passed~

Life Without My PC

2011-11-08T14:59:00.007+08:00

it happened on 31 Oct, the day i got my new SNSD album~

thought that 1/11/2011 (11111) was a lucky day to me cos i got what i want
from the album which is i got Seohyun fan card

that very low chances to get her...

damn happy to get the album and the fan card till after i finish my work,
ran back home and straight away play the cd in my pc...

rain has started and its getting heavier and heavier but i didnt care much
cos the album songs has charmed my heart...
the album songs played for 40mins+ and i keep replaying,
even i listen it while im taking my nap...

suddenly, a lighting strikes!
immediately i went switch off my pc so that it wont spoil...

went take a nap and after that went for futsal with my gangs...

tiring and exhausted after the futsal but i still energize

once i stepped in my room cos wanna continue to listen the album...
*switch on the pc, look at the screen = black screen* O.O
WTH?! i starting panic about it~ NOOO!!

i almost wanna to cry on the spot...
to me, no pc = no living purpose~

now, almost 2 weeks i didnt face my pc and the world of net~
worse than being jailed~ :'(

cant do anything than just cry and emo at home till the next weeks coz
now i dont have $$ to fix it~

still gonna bare it~ :'(

aren't they beautiful? this picture is similar with my poster when i bought my new album~
wanna show to you guys but cant~ :'(

but anyway, thats all i wanna say~

Mistake

2011-09-23T21:42:00.005+08:00

It's September this month and soon gonna be October.
I have changed a new job, again. Work as a clerk in a local bank (AmBank Group)~

Reason? Compare to the previous job, the offer salary is slightly better and i just need to work on weekdays and rest on weekends. Worked in a bank, sound much better right?
People hear it, they even will say 'oh nice, bank~'

Started to work this early of the month. Once again, my office is full of females and male? Less than 10 (the only male, which me in my department =.=)

Job scope? Nothing much. Key-in data and filing documents. My supervisor taught me to make cheque books but in 2 weeks later (now), im not allow to do it. Because i did alot of mistake while printing those cheques. My supervisor says, i have to pay alot attention while making it.
Those cheques cost very high, and is better to not making mistakes on it.

Even though, she reminded me to be careful but still, i dont know why i still able to make mistakes. A careless mistake!
Not 1 piece or 10 pieces but 100 PIECES of cheques! and almost 2 weeks i did the same thing, MISTAKES!!
and because of that, my assist manager who in charge of the cheque books, stopped me to do it.

On that day, i was moody. Keep telling myself, why i didnt pay attention on it.
Now, i given a bad impression to my assist.manager since i didnt do well on that.
and i dont like that. =(

Back to my key-in data. Always get sleepy while doing it~
due to my sleepiness, again, mistakes come to me.
Wrong figures or wrong names or wrong documents.

Im kinda worry, will i get fired because of it?? mistake mistake mistake~
I really dont wish that will happen. but what are the way to help me to solve this kind of problem?

I wonder, is it a mistake that i changed to this new job??
If compare to the previous job, i didnt even once felt sleepy while working it.
Even though i only slept like 3~4 hours per day then went to work. (last time)

Am I a person not suitable to work in type of job? i wonder....

It still early to judge that, may be im still new for this job. Its just my thinking of the moment.
I always want to do better. Im not easily to giving it up~

OR MAY BE! because of RC? CURSE!!! >.<

Jobless to Working

2011-07-20T16:34:00.006+08:00

After i resigned from my previous work (Dover Elevator), been jobless for 2 months.
2 MONTHS! Rm2000+ already gone! some more i need to spend in these periods.

but thanks to these 2 months, i able to travel here and there.
Penang: Cyndi's Birthday Party & Melaka: William's Birthday Party
walk, laugh, drink, eat, and see beautiful scenery are the activities at there.
especially BEACH! which my most favorite place.
i LOVE the ocean, the soft sand, the boats, the wind blow
and those salty water that can peel off my dead skins.

not just those place, Midvalley & Timesquare are the place i often went
with my buddy Gordon, Andrea, Xuan, Yee Sin & Kee Foong.
even though our activities at there were just
movies, meals, and some arcades (simple plans)
but we sure enjoyed and laughed together till
need to repost those incidents back to Facebook and laugh again. xD

now, i found my new job: Ticketing Officer
i know it seems like the job is out from my working scope
but i need to work and earn back some moneys,
so i can spend it again happily with my buddies.
but dont worry, i wont stay here long until
i able to find more suitable jobs for me.
'is better have works than jobless~'

P/S: since i posted this article, it means im back to blogging life
cause i really have a lot of FREE time at here.
so, welcome me back... MUAHAHAHAHA! xD

Christmas & New Year 2010

2011-01-04T22:50:00.008+08:00

Every christmas and new year, i always celebrate alone. Either staying at home or at my Godmother's house. Not as fun as like others out there. But its different last year, i went out with friends and have fun till the late night. Drink! Club! Pub!

At first i was shy shy not dare to talk much to them, just looking at them. In my mind told me to step out, get out from my comfort zone cause i want to change a new me by the year 2011. And i did it! Get to know some my old friends and new friends. Even though the friends between they and i still not so close yet but i will try my best to know them, talk with them and enjoy with them.

I regret i didnt made a lot of friends in my past life but now im going to start meet new people and make friends. Without friends, u gonna be alone. Of course there's always family to support but friends better to me~ :)

Lets get started!!

Christmas Eve with buddies~

My buddies~ :D

New Year Eve!
the happiest time in 2010
cherish it till the end of it

Mama 54th Birthday

2010-12-20T23:56:00.023+08:00

8th of dec, was my mum birthday~
i didnt buy any present for her but i treat her dinner as a present...
before went for dining, i asked her to choose which style she likes, either japanese or western or chinese~ i also planned well, if she choose japanese then i will bring her to jogoya or saisaki... if western, tony roma or the ship... if chinese, bring her to mandarin palace at federal hotel which can eat all u like in chinese dishes~

her conclusions = hakka cruises at pavilion which eat hakka dishes~
well, i though she will choose jogoya or mandarin palace but i still ok with her~ me and her ordered some hakka dishes and it quite nice too~ especially i ordered the 'fried prawns something', damn delicious!

spend Rm150+ which was fine for me but my mom keep saying is not right for me to treat her eat and she willing to pay it back~
WTH! u raised me 20 years and u still saying not right for me to do that?? then do i need to pay back you to all those 20 years expenses?? @.@

whats weird is that, after the meal, she went to toilet and do her 'business' cause she didnt able to do her 'business' at the day time and i need to wait for her while pavilion was closing~ MUM! its embarrassing!! >.<

Hakka Cruises Dishes

though wanted to watch movie with her but all movies very late and almost midnite only start to show... my mum dont want too late to go back home, so didnt make it to watch~ then snapped some picture with the christmas deco at pavilion~

well, thats how i celebrated with my mum this year...i know it may not so special but its simple and i will do it better next years...
Happy 54th Birthday, my lovely Mum! :)

mama with the chirstmas tree~

....and thats me! :D

Its Been Awhile

2010-12-06T19:43:00.009+08:00

fu-yoh!! its been awhile didnt update my blog...
let see, a month? 2 months? no, its 3 months!!
sorry, didnt update it because nothing much to update and lazy to update~
>.<

erm, people in penang speaks mandarin more than cantonese...
i was so scare to interact with penang citizen cause my mandarin wasnt good to speak out but i still manage to talk with them and promote our products~

then, penang got A LOT of temple... here and there also got temple, just past another street will see a temple again~ i guess, penang people do pray alot.
penang's foods are irresistible! cheap and delicious especially their fried kuey teow and lobak (fried foods)

the most happy to me is that my boss, booked 4 star hotel rooms in penang (which what my colleague said to me) for us, the workers stay a night...
the hotel named, The Gurney Hotel~
our room is a suite room, my first time to stay such a big room... got office table, dining table and the toilet, GOT BATH TUB! but too bad, not able to use it cause we damn tired after the work at that day~ =S

after that trip, nothing much interesting happened again~
oh well, christmas is in the corner...
hope got any special things happen to me and hope able to find a person to able hold my hands... u all know what i mean right??? ;)

oh yeah, bought a camera with my own money. sony cybershot DSC-W320

so happy for it! =D

Working Life

2010-09-28T22:17:00.033+08:00

after i finish my diploma in Aug,

i was been 'free' for two weeks and
my wallet was getting skinner.
andrea recommend me to work with her
in Midvalley, The Gardens as shop assists.
that shop name Juice Beauty, The Organic Solution.

my first impression was 'what? shop assists?
sure my frenz and family will tease me
because i stutied in diploma but went work that post.'
'skin care?? Its girl's job!' But i dont have any choice,
i need money to survive and
i try not to ask money from my mom.
so, i accepted that job.

when the day i started work at there,
i felt so bored cause no customer come in.
i am not the person who doesnt not
do anything and get the salary.
at the time, i started to think many things
and i was wanted to quit before regret later on.
she advise me to try to stay longer a bit.
last time when she work, she also has the same thinking
to quit the job.
its because we dont familiar in working life
since we just finsh studying.
so, thats why we will felt boring at that time we start working.
i taken her advice.
day after day, i got used to it and i did some sales too!

past few weeks, a girl named xuan joined us.
she was andrea's and my fren but andrea known her more than me.
the four of us included out supervisor who same age with me,
gossiping and chatting till tears and stomachache.
but when boss come collect the sales money,
we act serious in front of the boss. ^^

so now, my life about to change.
change to getting mature and takes more responsibilities.
there is no more CK who like to
jumps around and laugh like a moron,
must think about future and must collect a lot of money!!

Correction

2010-09-27T20:17:00.005+08:00

If you read my first post, that post was not my first. Previously, my blog account got something wrong which cant load the gadgets. So, i delete it and remake a new one which this acc. is my latest. Its not like i got many posts in the previous acc. also but still, my memories are all gone now. I'm also long time didnt write anything until last few days, went check my blog and wanted to continue it. So, from now onwards, i will keep on sharing my activities and feelings to all of you. Remember stay tune, alright?? :D

First time

2010-09-26T18:14:00.000+08:00

It seems that now days everyone is making their own blog accounts and its boost me wanted to create too!! Previously, blogging was suggested by some of my friends & family (F&F) but i lazy to make it until today because i saw some of my fellow friends doing same thing which making blogger accounts. So i am also give it a try to create it to express and share my feeling and life to you all.

Do you know that doing this blogging it will upgrade our writing, speaking, reading and listening skills? May be some of you wont agree with me and i am also wont agree with myself in the first place, but now i wont felt the same way.

This is because writing increase our grammars and vocabularies while you are writing in anything. After you have done your writings, by checking correct words will increase your reading skills. With those 2 skills, it will boost your another 2 skills, which are speaking and listening. Your speaking will based on your reading and listening will based on your writing. Dont believe? Try read a newspaper and listen a news. I bet you will used those 4 skills.

Oh well, this is it for my first blog. If you would like to know more about me and my life, stay tune with me, ok? Sayonara~