Feeling

wanna to express my feeling but I can’t or don’t know how to.
wanna tell you but don’t know is it correct or not.
wanna tell you but scare you will judge me differently.
what worse is that if I tell you, I scare I will lose you.

we use to be together,
we use to having fun together,
we use to talking to each other,
but now not anymore, I noticed and I think I should back off.

seeing you being happy, I also happy for you.
but in the same time, heartache feelings pop inside of me.
still wondering why I'm having this kind of feelings.

I can see life is changing now.
before getting worse, is better either one of us have step out.
I have chosen mine to do it first.
thank you for everthing.

Its Okay Even If It Hurts

It’s okay even if I can’t see
It’s okay even if I can’t breath
If I could meet you only once
If I could give you all my heart

How much more do I have to miss you
So that maybe you could know my heart?
How much more do I to cry and cry
So that tears could be dry?

Does it hurt because of loving you?
Is it the punishment for loving you so much?
Even though you say that I can lose everything
It’s okay if I just have you to be with me

Even if my heart is broken when loving you
Even if my heart is separated when waiting for you
It’s okay because I love you
It’s okay even if I get hurt

The farther I turn away so as to forget you
The more I miss you, What can I do
Even when you keep telling me it’s not right

just to keep me away from you
You are the only one to me, What can I do

Does it hurt because of loving you?
Is it the punishment for loving you so much?
Even though you say that I can lose everything
It’s okay if I just have you to be with me

Even if my heart is broken when loving you
Even if my heart is separated when waiting for you
It’s okay because I love you
It’s okay even if I get hurt

Even if I get poisoned and pricked
My love for you can’t stop
I will wait for you until forever
I will endure even if it hurts and hurts

Because of loving you more
It’s okay even if tears fall down
It’s okay even if it hurts...

not feeling well recently,

works and personal things.

cant focus well on working,
cant rest well when i needed.

emotional cannot be control,
few minutes ago = happy & crazy X)
few minutes later = being silent & emo at the corner =.=

lol~

felt a bit heartache which never had that before~
i wonder why, too tired?
i need water, to calm myself down.
swimming pool?? hmm...

'Best in Me - Blue' (love this song once i heard it)
and never stop listening to it... till almost tears... :')

Clarks Warehouse Sales

17 Nov 2011

is my first time going to Petaling Jaya without someone bringing me go there

coz there is not public transport going to there.
solution is go by train then take local bus at there.
the place are stranger to me.
i though go to Cold Storage by walking there after dropped off from the train.
then i saw a local bus that makes me lazy to walk to there.

while sitting in the bus, i look around the place where the driver took me to,
the place are houses area!!
i went to Jaya One once before so, i still remember how is the place are looks like~
but i don't know where the place i was when that time...

decide to ask the bus driver whether he got go to the place,
and you know what? 'we have passed the place~'

NOOO!!! made me walk all the way from the highway to the event place...
if i didnt take the bus and follow my original plan, i sure won't be that bad... :'(

took me 1 hour walk all the way back to Cold Storage~
tired and frustrated...

the event hall is different from the previous event hall that held at other place
which more classy and colder~
but surprising is that, i yawned for the first day coz it is the easiest setup day(1st day)
ever compare to the previous warehouse sales!
the stocks are sent till in front of the entrance where previously we have to go
all the way to the loading bay and take stocks back to the hall~

so, didn't spend a lot time to complete the task and time passed fast~ :)

when time to go back, i walk back to the train station at LRT Asia Jaya...
under dark sky and scary alley that i passed~

Life Without My PC

it happened on 31 Oct, the day i got my new SNSD album~

thought that 1/11/2011 (11111) was a lucky day to me cos i got what i want
from the album which is i got Seohyun fan card

that very low chances to get her...

damn happy to get the album and the fan card till after i finish my work,
ran back home and straight away play the cd in my pc...

rain has started and its getting heavier and heavier but i didnt care much
cos the album songs has charmed my heart...
the album songs played for 40mins+ and i keep replaying,
even i listen it while im taking my nap...

suddenly, a lighting strikes!
immediately i went switch off my pc so that it wont spoil...

went take a nap and after that went for futsal with my gangs...

tiring and exhausted after the futsal but i still energize

once i stepped in my room cos wanna continue to listen the album...
*switch on the pc, look at the screen = black screen* O.O
WTH?! i starting panic about it~ NOOO!!

i almost wanna to cry on the spot...
to me, no pc = no living purpose~

now, almost 2 weeks i didnt face my pc and the world of net~
worse than being jailed~ :'(

cant do anything than just cry and emo at home till the next weeks coz
now i dont have $$ to fix it~

still gonna bare it~ :'(

aren't they beautiful? this picture is similar with my poster when i bought my new album~
wanna show to you guys but cant~ :'(

but anyway, thats all i wanna say~

Mistake

It's September this month and soon gonna be October.
I have changed a new job, again. Work as a clerk in a local bank (AmBank Group)~

Reason? Compare to the previous job, the offer salary is slightly better and i just need to work on weekdays and rest on weekends. Worked in a bank, sound much better right?
People hear it, they even will say 'oh nice, bank~'

Started to work this early of the month. Once again, my office is full of females and male? Less than 10 (the only male, which me in my department =.=)

Job scope? Nothing much. Key-in data and filing documents. My supervisor taught me to make cheque books but in 2 weeks later (now), im not allow to do it. Because i did alot of mistake while printing those cheques. My supervisor says, i have to pay alot attention while making it.
Those cheques cost very high, and is better to not making mistakes on it.

Even though, she reminded me to be careful but still, i dont know why i still able to make mistakes. A careless mistake!
Not 1 piece or 10 pieces but 100 PIECES of cheques! and almost 2 weeks i did the same thing, MISTAKES!!
and because of that, my assist manager who in charge of the cheque books, stopped me to do it.

On that day, i was moody. Keep telling myself, why i didnt pay attention on it.
Now, i given a bad impression to my assist.manager since i didnt do well on that.
and i dont like that. =(

Back to my key-in data. Always get sleepy while doing it~
due to my sleepiness, again, mistakes come to me.
Wrong figures or wrong names or wrong documents.

Im kinda worry, will i get fired because of it?? mistake mistake mistake~
I really dont wish that will happen. but what are the way to help me to solve this kind of problem?

I wonder, is it a mistake that i changed to this new job??
If compare to the previous job, i didnt even once felt sleepy while working it.
Even though i only slept like 3~4 hours per day then went to work. (last time)

Am I a person not suitable to work in type of job? i wonder....

It still early to judge that, may be im still new for this job. Its just my thinking of the moment.
I always want to do better. Im not easily to giving it up~





OR MAY BE! because of RC? CURSE!!! >.<

Jobless to Working

After i resigned from my previous work (Dover Elevator), been jobless for 2 months.
2 MONTHS! Rm2000+ already gone! some more i need to spend in these periods.

but thanks to these 2 months, i able to travel here and there.
Penang: Cyndi's Birthday Party & Melaka: William's Birthday Party
walk, laugh, drink, eat, and see beautiful scenery are the activities at there.
especially BEACH! which my most favorite place.
i LOVE the ocean, the soft sand, the boats, the wind blow
and those salty water that can peel off my dead skins.

not just those place, Midvalley & Timesquare are the place i often went
with my buddy Gordon, Andrea, Xuan, Yee Sin & Kee Foong.
even though our activities at there were just
movies, meals, and some arcades (simple plans)
but we sure enjoyed and laughed together till
need to repost those incidents back to Facebook and laugh again. xD

now, i found my new job: Ticketing Officer
i know it seems like the job is out from my working scope
but i need to work and earn back some moneys,
so i can spend it again happily with my buddies.
but dont worry, i wont stay here long until
i able to find more suitable jobs for me.
'is better have works than jobless~'



P/S: since i posted this article, it means im back to blogging life
cause i really have a lot of FREE time at here.
so, welcome me back... MUAHAHAHAHA! xD